This past weekend I recorded a special episode (#113, ironically) on the subject of fear. I am more familiar than I would like to be on the subject having lived life in an almost constant state of fear, and feel I’m in no way alone! We all have fear in our souls, minds, hearts, and even cells and brain neurons, and it’s time to heal it!
I’ve been thinking about the subject of past lives (the theory that one can bring past pain from another previous life with us into our present one). My fear can be so intense and specific, it truly makes me wonder if I have somehow lived through it before on some level in another lifetime!
One thing that is definitive is that fear that can be coded into our DNA from ancestral trauma. Also, traumas that occur before the age of five (as infants) can mentally and emotionally scar us and our subconscious! This is such a mind bender, because the whole meaning of ‘subconscious’ means that we aren’t aware of the trauma–we don’t even remember it.
One thing that I can state with confidence is that growing up in a severely dysfunctional alcoholic household scarred me in an ongoing sustained way, and due to this my brain neurons laid down specific pathways. I’m no expert, but I do know that the electric impulses in our brain follow paths of habitual thinking. It stands to reason that if you consciously work toward changing your thoughts and the way you think, you change your mind and positively affect your emotions, actions, and life!
I also think that one’s body / mind might seek to support fearful thoughts due to an addiction to adrenaline: my chemical makeup has been filled with fear for so long, it’s become ‘comfortable’ in it (as strange as that sounds)!
This takes time and effort, but we must not be discouraged. I came to the conclusion that even if my deep fear is never fully healed, even if I still have occasional sleepless nights filled with dread and times in which I feel terrified, that is O.K. I am willing to accept that in exchange for feeling overall better, for experiencing glimpses of life without fear–for it is by having these moments that I can more easily get through the hard ones. My fear episodes are getting ‘easier’ in certain ways, and don’t last as long.
Remember, getting through fear episodes means using your ‘tools’, whatever they are: clearing your mind, conscious breathing, meditative techniques, energy work, prayer, sound therapy, eft / tapping, etc. There is a lot out there, so figure out what helps you.!
I intend to cover the subject of feeling, dealing with, and healing fear a lot more in the future, so as always, stay tuned for more. I appreciate you!